{photocredit: someone special}
10/29/10
My most precious Avvian,
I love the above picture. :) It reminds me so much of us. Strolling along through trees the color of fire. :) Just trying to kill time and act like we arn’t busy. I know that this is my second letter today, but I thought we needed to buckle down and talk about something serious. Not saying God isn’t serious, that’s not what I mean at all.
I sat with papaw yesterday, and I noticed that he still wore his wedding band.
And now I think you deserve some family history from my perspective in this point of my life.
My mamaw left my papaw. I still don’t like it. I’m still mad at her for hurting him. And now my parents want a divorce. That makes my mother a second generation divorcee or something of that nature. And I hate it.
So bad.
And I’m so afraid that I’ll forget how much I love you and carry on this legacy of anger and divorce, and Av, that is the last thing I want with you. I want to get old with you Av. :) I want to spend every second of our time still on earth loving you. I love the fact that you’re mine. You have no idea. I have never felt this in love with anyone. And I don’t even know you yet.
I’m so glad that there is a God, and that He does have a plan. :)
Especially for us Av.
I said that I wasn’t going to date until I found you. And someone said that I would never find you then, but I don’t believe that. I think we’ll know. It’s one of those things where you get to know someone as a friend. You know I want Av, I want to go aboutSave as Draft this all the right way. I want to make sure that you are the one before I kiss you.
That sounds silly. But I don’t want to kiss a bunch more guys. Just you. And I hope you respect me for that. It’s just that I’ve given so much of myself away already ya know? I don’t want to be tempted to do it again.
I’m ready to be married right now :> I’m ready to be with you forever.
But I trust God, and His plan is better I’m positive.
I’ll see you soon Av.
I love you
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