Letter Number Thirteen

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11/1/10

Dearest Av,

I know that this is letter number two, but :) I like to write you when I have something really special, and something really important on my mind. And yes, it has to do with God :). Simply because when I think of Him, it consumes my mind. It’s all I can think about all day, or until the next big thought comes along. And really, I like that. I like knowing that He’s up there plundering about and keeping away the unholy thoughts. :)

Today, let’s you and me take a trip to the ocean :) I want to point some things out and I think you might just like what I have to point out and what I have to say.

I’ve never really told anyone besides Courtney this, but when I was younger, I looked up while I prayed. I still like to. I don’t mean it out of irreverence, it’s just, when I feel the sunlight on my face, I can imagine God better. The sunlight is warm, and I think God is warm like this. :)

Another thing I wonder is if God’s heartbeat thunders like the ocean crashing into the rocky shore. His heartbeat would sound pretty I think. :) I’d like to hear it someday.

I also received an email today that said...

If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.

If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.

He sends you flowers every spring, and a sunrise every morning.

Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen.

He could live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.

What about the Christmas gift He sent you in Bethlehem ;

not to mention that Friday at Calvary .

Face it, He's crazy about you. :)

I love that :) For so many reasons. He sends us flowers, :) and we never realize it or think about it in that way. He paints us a sunrise each and every morning to say :) I love you, Have a good day.

HE COULD LIVE ANYWHERE IN THE UNIVERSE, AND HE CHOSE my HEART!

Just thinking about that line humbles me to my knees. The one, true, almighty lamb of God CHOSE to live in the heart of one of the wretched and most vile humans walking the earth. Not so people would look at Him and pity Him, not because He’s getting paid to, but because He loves me with a love so pure, and so infinite, that just a small shaving of this love, a mere speck, could light up the eastern sky for an eternity.

And the fact that the Creator of Love is crazy about me, just completely floors me. I have no idea what to say about this. It’s really just hard for me to fathom this kind of selfless love. A love that does not love for a reward. A love so mighty that it makes the stars twinkle, a love that is so powerful it forces the ocean waves onto the shore and back out to sea again, a love so strong that it stands the tests of time. A love that is free, and beautiful, and all mine.

I absolutely LOVE that this love is the very backbone of my love for you Av. So I want to make you a vow.

My darling,

I promise to love you always, even when times get hard, and even when we are not agreeing as well as we would like.

I promise that when I am hateful that I will attempt to keep that hatred inside until God can demolish it.

I promise to try not to take things out on you when I’m upset.

I promise to ask you to come back to bed when you get mad and decide to sleep on the couch.

I promise to miss you when you’re not around.

I promise to always pray for you.

I love you Av, and I want to have the best relationship possible with you.