Letter Number Twenty

{Photocredit: A wise one}

12/2/10

Dear Av,

I won’t lie. I’m a little broken right now. And as you know, I try not to use names. Well, male ones, because you really could be who I’m talking about and I don’t want to you to think that I think awful things about you all the time because I don’t. Does this make sense? But today I have to throw caution to the wind and tell you about this. I have to get this out.

Darren Tyler Duncan is about to rip my heart in half.

I don’t know if you’re him, but I have to get this out.

He’s changed so much, but to tell him that would be like telling him that he’s growing another head or something. I won’t lie to you my dear, I don’t like who he has become. I don’t like his girlfriend. I don’t like that they’ve already been all over each other. I don’t like that he’s not thinking of his wife. He’s grouchy and moody and defensive. He won’t tell me anything anymore. He won’t even make an effort to see me. Which hurts me. He’ll go days and weeks without so much as saying hi. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I try to pray for him, but it seems like every time I do, he’ll end up saying or doing something to hurt me.

And really, not gossiping, but judging by his fruit, I don’t think he’s really saved.

I’m so tired of getting hurt Av. I really am. I don’t know what to do. I cry all the time now.

And maybe he is you. And you’re reading this now, and feeling awful for what you did,

I just want you to understand; that the only thing I want for Tyler Duncan is for him to get better.

Why can’t he see that?

Everyone else does.